What do I like most about acting?  The rejection.  And what are auditions but an opportunity to, if not get cast, rack up some more no's?  We all wind up carrying our share, and might as well let it feel good to get on with it.

So when I have a good audition, whether or not I'm cast is just part of it.  How much fun was it?  How did it feel?  Was there reaction in the room?  When they laugh (appropriately) and nod and look at each other and seem kind of amazed, this is good, it seems and feels. 

I have had auditions where I felt like I might as well have just gone in and wet myself.  There have been auditions after which I performed victory dances on the sidewalk.  Occasionally, a wetting-myself one has scored me a booking while a victory dance has gone unanswered.

It's not a complete mystery, but it's pretty mysterious.  Unpredictable, anyway.  Many, many more to come.

I'm now also listing on the new site SF Actors. 

I can now be cast from anywhere.  After talking with the good people at Look Talent, arrange to send sides to SF Actors.  Then kick back and wait for my auditions to be posted to the web for your viewing.

Have passport, will travel.

Wow, lots to catch up on. 

Existence is constantly renewing itself.  Stepping back into a stream after being out of it fascinates anew.

Bowl of Rose Leaves closed at the end of August after a successful run.  What a team.  What an experience. 

Two weeks later, I got married.  I was the male lead and co-director and co-producer.  We pulled off a fantastic show with much help and support from all directions.  Truly fantastic. 

After a sweet chunk of time to ourselves, it's back into the glorious world.  Lots of theories about what happens to jobs for actors in an economic downturn.  The "word" is that it is a slow time, but then some spend more on advertising when buyers are harder to get.  Auditions have not dried up for me, but they are not raining from the sky either.  On we go.

In the roles I've played over the last year or so, I have been dubbed "drug dealer," "assassin" and other dubious types.  I've killed my brother, poisoned my sister's ex-boyfriend, been killed by assassins, stolen ideas, snorted meth, stolen friend's wives, sweared, slugged down whiskey, threatened and insulted employees and colleagues, paid to have my wife killed, threatened my brother's girlfriend with a kitchen knife, and then, finally, I went on a date with a prostitute that turns bad, confirming that indeed, my acting career is moving right along.

Beyond the chain of violence and betrayal, I've been blessed by supportive therapists, understanding exes, apologetic bureaucrats, restrained surgeons, sharp prosecutors, crafty janitors, streetwise cops, compassionate leaders and truth-seeking loving husbands. 

It's been a pretty good mix.  What's next?

Not a topic, per se, but the title of a short film completed by Monica Savini a few months back.  See the link on my Reel page.  Working opposite the fabulous Jean Naughton.  Let her compel you for a few minutes when I spring into action.  Sort of.  Check it out.

The weird thing is I no longer look anything like the guy in that movie.  The sweater's to Goodwill, even.  This highlights a sort of marketing curve that I am finding a bit dizzying.  After about thirty shoots over the last year and a half, I've amassed some footage.  A large percentage is at least somewhat poorly lit and showcases some dude who weighs fifteen more pounds, has absurdly (in hindsight) short sideburns for his face, and maybe even a goatee.  What good is all this footage to market the new me, I ask you?  Not much.  And then you grow as an actor, and you look at the old stuff (and it can seem to have grown quite old in the interval between shooting and screening) and say, "Ehh, no so much am I liking that one." 

But the deal is, you just keep shooting, changing, updating.  There is nothing very static in this world.

I registered at LOOK Talent yesterday.  As I was filling out my card, David Silverman turned from his phone conversation and asked me if I wanted to go out on an audition right away.  Yes, said I.  That's the way I like it.  When I mentioned I had an audition coming up for another episode of World's Astonishing News!, the Japanese TV show I've had a few appearances on, they called the production company right away to let them know I was represented.  That meant an instant 66% raise in my rate.  So far, I like this whole agent thing.